One Month On

Friday 19th April 2019 – Diary 

Today, Friday the 19th of April, is the fourth week I have come out as a Trans Woman. My life as a woman has been great, other than last friday when I was robbed.  I am loving my new clothes and the feeling that these bring to me.  It is hard to explain how I am feeling everyday.  But I do not have that dark cloud hanging over me that I had when I was in the ‘closet’.

I am now starting to put make-up on and I am enjoying the self-care that I show myself. This ‘mothering’ care is enhancing the quality of my everyday life.  Before I came out, I found looking after myself very difficult, actually if I am completely honest, it did not exist.  It was a chore that I did not like doing.  I did not respect myself and this increased my depression and the hate I had for myself.

My new love for myself has given me a new release of life.  Everyday is a new start.  I take pride in how I look.  I am lucky to be able express myself in this way without judgement.  In many countries and terrorities the way I express myself is not possible.

On Facebook, I am in contact with at least one person who is not able to express themselves.  They want to be a woman, but born as a man, (this is known as M to F (MtoF)).  This person is very depressed and they feel lost.  I could not imagine how they are coping.

According to the Guardian newspaper’s website there are sevent-two (72) countries that it is illegal to have or to be in a Gay relationship (2017).  The article also states that there are forty-five (45) countries in which being in a lesbian relationships is also illegal.

The article further states “there were twenty (20) countries who decriminialised same sex relationships before the 1900’s” (2017).  This allowed same sex relationships.  Britian only decriminalised it fifty (50) years ago.

The article shows a detailed map of the world where being in a gay reationship can be punished by death or inprisonment.

References:

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2017/jul/27/gay-relationships-still-criminalised-countries-report

 

I AM WINNING!

Tuesday 5th March 2019 – Diary

Trigger Warning:

Tonight I took a faith and courage.  Because of the sexual abuse that I have suffered I find it very difficult 2 use male only changing areas.  But I did it.

Not only did I do that but I also did 8 lengths of a swimming pool which for me is a lot of exercise.

I’m also now eating my very first solid food in 28 weeks a banana. I feel proud of myself.