Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder (E. U. P. D.)

Wednesday 6th March 2019 – 09:30 – Diary

What I hate about emotionally unstable personality disorder and the other personal disorders that I’ve got is as following

I think for me it’s emotional cause I got emotional unstable personality disorder so one minute I could be friendly and then the next minute pushing away but I don’t mean to as the saying goes a push is better than a shove.  Or another way of putting it go before your thrown out I fear rejection more than anything else.

My emotions go from high, I’m excited with happiness to all of a sudden Sadness in a blink of an eye.  It hurts a lot.

I’m so lost!

Sunday 3rd March 2019 – 18:35 – Diary 

I am totally lost at the moment. One minute I am married, able to talk to my wife about the important and not so important things. I then find that a court had banned me from talking to her. There is so many things I want to express. My gratitude for her bringing a beautiful son, child into this world.

I want to express the many things that I should have done as her husband and as the father but I failed and cannot express any of this.

I am so happy that people have the love of their lives, but it rips me apart. I can’t cope with weekends when I see families together. I miss my family.

Will I ever be happy and in love again?! I find it hard to see.

I feel so miserable
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