Wednesday 6th March 2019 – 09:30 – Diary
What I hate about emotionally unstable personality disorder and the other personal disorders that I’ve got is as following
I think for me it’s emotional cause I got emotional unstable personality disorder so one minute I could be friendly and then the next minute pushing away but I don’t mean to as the saying goes a push is better than a shove. Or another way of putting it go before your thrown out I fear rejection more than anything else.
My emotions go from high, I’m excited with happiness to all of a sudden Sadness in a blink of an eye. It hurts a lot.
Sunday 3rd March 2019 – 18:35 – Diary
I am totally lost at the moment. One minute I am married, able to talk to my wife about the important and not so important things. I then find that a court had banned me from talking to her. There is so many things I want to express. My gratitude for her bringing a beautiful son, child into this world.
I want to express the many things that I should have done as her husband and as the father but I failed and cannot express any of this.
I am so happy that people have the love of their lives, but it rips me apart. I can’t cope with weekends when I see families together. I miss my family.
Will I ever be happy and in love again?! I find it hard to see.
I feel so miserable
25th February 2019 – Diary
This is how I am feeling at the moment, hiding. Hiding from the real world.
Friday 22nd February 2019 – Diary
Recently I have only understood why people cut themselves. I thought it was just wanting Attention.
But as I have started to cut myself it is not for attention but an attempt to try and ease mental unease.