Thoughts of how I view the world.

Friday 19th April 2019 – Diary

Today I’ve been working on my blog and updating it. I have been busy doing this and did not notice my feelings.

I am lonely I wish I had someone with me that loved me for who I am. Normally I would be busy talking to my adopted daughter but she’s not online at the moment. Out of all the people on my list on Facebook there’s no one to talk to. It’s sad that I rely on social media to keep me content but I do not know any other way.

I am avoiding doing necessary tasks like cleaning my flat I don’t want to start but I know I should. I know I will get angry with myself for failing to do this but it seems such a big effort for little reward.

I am going to go to my writers group tonight it’s in the Jailhouse bar, my very first night going to this group was in this place and it took me forever to find it.

How can I win over my negativity? I must remain positive in my way of thinking.

Crippling Tendencies

Friday 8th March 2019 – Diary 
Posted on 8th Mar 2019

I deplore myself because I’ve got Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (eupd). I grab that anyone who makes contact with me is this the person that could just be the one that changes my life and becomes my soul mate?

Eupd is irrational, it makes the sufferer “grab’ at the slightest tiniest piece of hope and it makes them worry. Have I said too much to that person?

Do they think I am worthy of their love, their care, their presence? We think negatively about ourselves am I not worthy of their loved or their time and so on.

How do We Overcome these negative tendencies that crippled our lives?